itz sunday. again...
the weekend zoomed by in 48 hours...
've been wondering why cant the weekend be 148 hours instead.
sunday represents "monday is comin....." in my opinion.
gah sad case of sunday/monday blues

oh i havent updated in a week or so.
say hi to the latest addition to my computer family
HP touchsmart.~~


i treated my dad on his birthday and he got us 2 desktops.
lolll my cousin was saying. wah manda, u got a good bargain.
u won.
loll
my bro finally got his new desktop as well.
windows 7.... i love.... goodbye lousy shit vista.
but i found the screen a little too big for comfort. maybe i will get used to the size of it
soon...

어떡하죠 바라만 보네요
짧은 인사조차 건낼수가 없네요
어떡하죠 멀어져 가네요
가슴가득 눈물만 차오네요
아무것도 해준게 없네요
못나게도 상처만 남겼네요

닿지 못한 내사랑 이제 보내야 하죠
오직 나를 웃게 할 사람 그대뿐인걸
사랑이 깊어져 마음이 아파와도

행복했던 그 기억은 놓지 말아요
다시 웃게 해줄 다른 사람 만나도
아픈 이별까지 그대라 다행이죠
슬픈 눈물 모아서 내가 할수 있는일
안 ~~~ 녕~~~~


Note of the day
been reminiscing...

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보고싶어... 근데 지금 이미 많이늦었지...
그래도 괜찮아... 그냥 그렇게 보고있도 난만족해...
친구로서...

i think i finally know what is the definition of the term WORK.
it is just tough the pay is slightly better than pathetic.
the project is really honestly a pot of sticky mess to begin with and
we are supposed to pick up the mess.
and if anything happens during the picking up of the mess, we are done for it.
i guess itz a lose-lose situation.

i skyped with ben just now and he said to me
"manda... dont be so affected by the job." yes he is right.
if i am so fucking affected then i LOSE AGAIN.
bloody hell gonna enjoy the weekend
i think i shld ask the rest of my young colleagues out for a karaoke session.
maybe next month when the pay is abit better than pathetic.

it is my dad's birthday on sunday but we are celebrating it tmr.
i told him i am gonna buy dinner tmr. but of coz within my pathetic budget.
i am gonna enjoy my weekend. waited long enough for it.

note of the day
no.longer.vintage....but.a.memory

think i was too stressed yesterday.
i woke up with fever and cough.
went to the docs today and
she told me i had low blood pressure o.0
thatz... surprising.

i am pissing mad right now
i had a fucking bad day

1st work was fucked today. shall not elaborate.

2nd my laptop crashed last weekend.
and i think the mother board was screwed.
so right now i am using my old laptop which is lagging like fuck.
the one thing i cannot stand. a computer lagging.
thatz like fucking torturous.
i feel like getting a deskptop like NOW.
BUT THEN the fucking dell website is fucked up as well.
cannot view the desktop section.
and even if i can view it,
i cannot find someone who actually KNOWS something about computers.
i just wanna break down and WEEP.
i guess i am a fucking idiot. but hey wad else is surprising.

and why am i thinking about getting a dell desktop?
because i dont have the fucking time to go to sim lim to pick and choose
and i want a computer NOW. like right now
so i can stop suffering from the fucking lag.
i am gonna suffer from an emotional breakdown because
i think no one can fucking understand what i need.
and yes i am fucking gonna pay for the damm fucking computer.

ahhhh I AM FUCKING MAD.
i shld juz cry to release my stress.

i need a shrink.

NOTE OF THE DAY
FUCK.OFF.

i've gained so much weight i think i resemble a pumpkin. (yes happy halloween)
i swear my ass got so much bigger.
drastic measures are needed. dieting? yes i shall only nibble on a piece of
carrot all day long and try my best to starve myself to death.
i wanna be a size 0.
preferably about 40kg. looking extremely underweight and anorexic.
need to start exercising and hula-hooping again.
(if i can freaking find the time.)
losing weight is not an easy process after my 21st birthday.
old age!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but hey i can still pass of as a student LOLLLL
i went to cocoa restaurant for lunch on friday with catherine, stacy and perlin.
yes all the colleagues out for lunch.
all 4 of us got away with asking for student prices for the steam boat buffet
technically stacy and perlin are 21 yrs old and are still students (both studying at SIM)
LOLLL catherine!!!! we still look young???????? i guess thatz a gd thing.

gahhhhhhh itz sunday already~ 1am.
i hate sundays more than i hate mondays.
why? simply because when sunday is here, monday is not to far behind.
and monday means.... work.

note to self: print out november calendar and plan timetable

Note of the day
i.am.praying.for.the.birth.of.more.public.holidays

there are always residential female demons living in offices across the globe.
one for every office. sometimes more if you get "lucky"
enough said.

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it was crazily cold in the office today
the cold sorta temporarily dulled my brain for the whole day.
wasnt able to concentrate on anything today.
even after 1 glass bitter herbal tea,
3 cups of grape soda, 1 bottle of mineral water, 1 box of sweets, 25 songs in an ipod.

i wish i was stupidly 16 again. gimme a pill to pop so i that can.
at least i was young and foolish..
embracing society is not exactly an enjoyable process.
i suppose itz something i will or need to get used to.
quoting catherine. "no wonder some ppl wish they can never grow up..."
at least i am working together with cat and a few nice colleagues.
makes things bearable.


“The soul is born old but grows young. That is the comedy of life. And the body is born young and grows old. That is life's tragedy.” ~Oscar Wilde

Note of the day
staring.at.my.kleenex.tissue.box

1. i am very very very tired.
sleep deprivation is not a good thing. (but i am not losing any weight)
and i need to go for a checkup next week.
i suspect my hyperthyroidism is acting up again.

2. work. work.work. more OT = more $$$ = no life
also teaching 2 students korean in the evenings. part-timing = more $$$

3. i bought my mum an exercise hula hoop and she is freaking in love with it.
my brother came home and he was like staring blankly at the gigantic hula hoop.
my brother exclaiming: WTF is this thing doing in my room?

my mum : my DAUGHTER buy for me!!! exercise hula hoop VERY GOOD. (smiles at amanda)

my brother jokes: ......................................... hurmp..... she work very big deal mehz. hula hoop only.
by the way mummy i wanna buy new desktop

my mum: ....................................

4. i decided that perhaps a chanel bag is not a good bag to begin with.
abit too pricey.
i shall get my driving license 1st and a much more afforable Gucci tote bag
(or it shld be fendi or LV loll)
probably can get from DFS. cheaper.
these events shld technically occur after i get my pay
(and after i ang bao-ed my parents).

5. i got to think about what to wear everyday. i need to organize my closet.... this weekend...

....
choon koko maybe i shld consider your suggestion...
ask chang yong chei chei for help hahahaha

going to bed.
so damm tired.
catherine. i really wanna go KINO but i dont think i can find time. LOLL
weekends are for sleeping. and my weekdays are filled.
wanna help me organize my time or not.